.Thursday, January 13 ' 8:36 PM Y
haiz.today really very sad lo.i cry.b4 dat i was really happy lo.playing wif my baby nephew.omg.so cute leh!! den he make mi so happy lo.cuz very long din play wif baby le mar.haha.den i carry him lo.carry him near the fish tank.haha.he saw the fish so happy.really ke ai lo.the way he walk so funny.den his smile so sweet.kekez.he nid slp le mar.so my cousin bring him home.
today suppose to help mama clean the house but she say tml.and tml i going back to sch for netball.she's so unreasonable lo.go back sch of cuz is for netball la.she say i going out with guys.sot de leh.once she open her mouth is guys! y cant i hang out wif them? so wat if a gal hanging out wif a gp of guys? i'm use to it.and whose fault? is hers! she let mi from young hang out wif guys till i so big le den she stop it.for a short period of time how she wan me to stop hanging out wif guys? is totally impossible!! i wont listen to her.all i could do is shout at her.really wan to tok to her nicely.but i cant.she's the wan who force mi to tok to her lidat.i really got think of wanna tok to her nicely de.will she listen? no lo! she wont! she always think wat she do for me is right.how i feel does she noes? she doesnt noe anithing abt me! wat i'm doing wat i wan.she noe NOTHING at all!! i don wan to quarrel wif her.i'm sick and tired of it.shouting at her will makes mi feel good? not at all.she's my mum and i'm yelling at her.i feel very bad lo.but dat's not i wan!! angry angry! really hope she can be like some kind of mother dat can listen to my problem, can understand wat i wan and trust me lo.haiz.i was watching liu xing hua yuan at dat time lo.cuz nth to do mar.den she say i watch too much.den always think of having a bf.after all her nagging she went out.rong call me n tok to mi in msn i din reply or ans lo.i was crying how to ans.tok to him in msn awhile den i go to slp.
i lay on the bed thinking alot of things.den he sms me.i din reply.he call again n i din ans.after dat he sms again ask me to reply him at least.and i reply him lo.i msg hong ask her can go find them anot cuz i really nid someone to tok to.but they got test till 4 lidat.i went to slp lo.after dat abt 4 plus yong call ask mi go eat wif them.i wake up change my clothes tell mama nicely i going out to find hong n yong.in the end she very fuck up de lo.say i go find bf all these la.say i kip going out.i really du lan wif her don wan tok so much wif her le lo.den i no $$ le wan get from her cuz i really hungry lo.afternoon juz ate a little bit of mee fen only.is not i don wan eat.is her fault! buy so little.mad mother.den her reply was go out wif bf tot he treat u de.really make mi damn piss off.i shout at her lo.she diam diam lo.wat can she say.cry again lo.i don wan tok to her and i walk off.on the way kip crying.but wanna reach le dry up my tears lo.but once i saw them they noe i cry cuz my nose was red de.they ask mi wat happen lo.haiz.say till half way cant control i cry again lo.they shock dao lo.haha.my eyes very pain lo.got them to tok to i feel much better lo.on the way home grastric pain le.all my mum's fault!! all i could do is ren lo.but really pain lo.i oso cannot do anithing.
haiz.wonder when den i can tok to my mum nicely.tell her abt mi n rong de things.y cant she understand dat is it natural for every teenagers to go thru this 'love' things.miss chow understand tis.think my frenz and teacher understand me better than see mi grow up de parents lo.haiz.love, frenz n family.which one most impt to me.i would never say family.cuz whenever i'm down, they are not by my side.in fact they make mi feel worst!anyway.they juz don understand me la.haiz.don wan say anymore le.
