actually i tot i got the mood to update my blog for the past 3 weeks.but i was wrong.haiz.now i juz don have the strength to do anithing.my heart breaks into pieces.tis is the 1st time my mum leave me.now she in hospital lo.doctor say her blood not enough.normally is 10 to 12 de.but she only 5 lidat.half of it lo.haiz.at hospital i really feel nth de la.not dat worry.but when i was abt to leave her in hospital i nearly cry out lo.i hold back.i don wan let my papa and cousin see me cry.i don like to let ppl see me cry.except those who close to me n my darling lo.den i saw darling send me de sms.i read le once again i nearly cry out.i cant cry in front of them!! i don wan.on the way my papa tok to my cousin.haiz.money problem again.when tok abt tis.i really regret dat i spend so much.i should have save up all those money.spend on those dat i needed only.but is too late.the whole journey home i kip holding back my tears.i kip asking myself not to cry and try to think abt the time when me n rong together.those sweet sweet things lo.i manage to do it but awhile i start to think abt mama again.in the lift papa start saying me le.say i keep go out.dunno how to help mama do some housework.lucky i still can ren.reach home abt 1130 lo.it really feels terrible lo.to let the tears roll in the eyes and not letting them roll out.reach home le i immdiately rush to the toilet.finally cry out le.few tears drop down.faster wash my face so dat is not obvious mar.still got abit red red lo.but not dat obvious.went into kor room on the computer and started playin gb.i win almost every game lo.den papa du lan wif me.but if i din play game i will think alot and juz cry out again lo.so i couldnt be bother.rong call me.is really late le lo.abt 12 or 12 plus lo.i keep ren lo.don wan my tears to flow out.abt 1 plus papa come in again.he say so late le still don wan slp.he stand and stare at me for long time.i even ask rong to hang up the fone.i cant switch off the computer immediately wat.half way thru the game.den he slam the door.haiz.i noe he bad mood.but my mood oso very bad mar.maybe he thinks mama in hospital le i still can play computer games n tok on fone.actually i very sad de lo.is juz dat i don wan to show out! haiz.tok to rong awhile online den off the computer lo.finally let my tears out.i cry.wanna cry out loud.i cant.so lidat la.don even bother to reply his sms.haiz.and fall aslp juz lidat lo.tired le mar.i really dunno wat i can say.juz feel very sad.think i stop here la.

- Weiting -
- 9 NOV 1988 -
- turning 21st soon! presents? ^.^ -
- SVPS, CCKSS, NP(ECE-microE)-
- Stepped into working society in Dec08 -
- In a Relationship with Mr Toh Yong Rong -

:: with laogong till old ::
:: always always happy ::
:: overcome my phobia ::
:: control my temper! ::
:: collect waterglobe ::
:: collect 偶像剧 VCD ::
:: collect all tweety bird stuffs ::
:: laptop or desktop ::
:: Decorate my room ::
:: open a shop (no idea wat to sell yet) ::
:: have a grand wedding dinner ^.^ ::