.Friday, January 25 ' 10:46 PM Y
here to update..
juz wan to vent out my anger!
my ls problem is back again!!
argh..dat's irritating..
actually cant say back again..it has never stopped
dat's y whenever b4 i go out i will try to shit at home 1st
if not i wont be comfortable thru the whole journey
this happen a year back? when i was in poly year2.2
i dunno wat's wrong with my tummy on dat morning and i juz to lun till sch
however i fail..i alight at bt plaza and do my business
and from dat day onwards...
i have this phobia
that is scare will wan to shit on the way to somewhr
maybe is some very shameful thing to shit on bus or mrt
thus this makes me more afraid
this problem has been troubling me
i dunno how to cure it and i will worry for nth most of the times
worse is when i'm already on the way and i'm late for sch
scare cant lun till sch another hand scare late for sch when alight at somewhr
really very xing ku..and my heart beats like crazy
can feel dat is about to pop out
i really hate myself to behave this way
but wat can i do? i got no idea!!
these 2 days dunno eat wat wrong thing den ls
really feeling not well
and take half day leave
wat makes me feel worse is not my tummy
is ppl thinking dat i'm acting to be sick and wanted to go home
seriously i don think any1 can understand wat i am going thru
for the past 1 year i have been worrying if i will shit on my way anot
i really feel very tired but i cant control
think tis sickness is fun?
is totally making me mad!
using stomach ache as an excuse of not going sch or work
i really hate ppl saying me dat
u wish i wan to be like tis
i dont wan!!
wat really happen to my tummy?
or is it some mental illness?
juz wish ppl would understand me more
instead of thinking is an excuse to skip something
really feeling very miserable with this going on
